Till' next year...

can't wait!=)

Been awhile

Wow, from October to December.. so much that has been accomplished and so much that needs to be..
All i'm afraid of..





... is letting go....

-it- wont

phase me. It's just a new door that has opened, and a lot ahead of you. Right? ...All there is, is trust. Trust in God.

October 12, 09

Honestly, being friends with someone whose friends with your bestfriend whose friends with your boyfriend who meets the new recruit whose good friends with the jjaar girls whose friends with the west co girls whose friends with all your other friends whose is already friends with your mom, always spices things up in your life whether it's good or bad but either way I still gots that equal love for them. Thanks for the people who came yesterday and making my birthday spectac(ha-_-)!&for those who represents, even though you came late you still got credit! sooo reeeeeeelax=)
...Until then, i'll be seeing you on friday!


Bestfriends give you posters of embarassing pictures of you. Balloons that are so big you can't see where your going. A thong and one sock. Granny panty-___-. &of course.. their "love" -_-

In 5 days..

it will be my birthday!=)

No hints

Honestly, what do you want me to do? Am i just here to be pushed around for your own sake? Am i still here for that object to take your anger out on? Am i just a show? Am i your play toy when your bored? Am i here to shed tears for your actions? Here to baby you for every mistake you make? What the fuck am i here for!?.. Seriously, please tell me. You've proven your pointS. I do so much for you...too much. But i'm more than okay with it.So when will i be appreciated for it? like before? Where did that loving boy go?..Cause shit, chinas far. But i'm still here,right? What more do you want from me?! I've done my deed, so when will you? I seriously don't even ask a lot from you, nor expect. It's like i'm the only one in this. So i ask that notorious answer, Where IS waldo? &When you find a girl that went through exactly what i've been through, i'd like to know how she handled it before she bounced.

P.s-fuck me for trying so hard and failing. Cause you obviously have no intentions on how i feel.

Oh it is love

Ughhh... what a small word but has a whole lottaa shit behind it. But hey, sometimes you think fuck it when you see that caution sign DONT FALL IN IT pass by. But what happens when you do? You really can't blame yourself with the feelings you feel, cause soon enough your "feelings" for it will soon enough take over you. Reminder- A boy will treat her girl like a princess and never leave her frownin' but it will eventually die down.. And when it does you start to learn something. And that something is to never let someone turn you into nothing, like you ain't shit. Success is getting what you want, happiness is appreciating what you have. Appreciate what needs to be appreciated and dont waste time that wont appreciate you back. Very little is needed for it to be made. Cause then if you're not happy.....now, you never will be. You'll start to know that happiness isn't a laughing matter. But there's something you'll never know once your deeply in it..You cannot fall out of it.

p.s- did i ever tell you t'was hypocritical day?

I may not be the happiest girl in the world, but i may be one, one day.
But satisfication will always do me just fine.
Its confusing, i,dgaf...i don't give a fuck, i love it.. and all that came with it. It's like some 2 for one millionn bagillion,special!

So it was told, you make sacrifices? So this is the sacrifice i'm always down to make.
I'm gonna deal with it, appreciate it, and love it. Which makes my kinda happiness.

Signed,
Boo boo

Summer 09'

Each and every summer everybody changes. No matter how many times you would write "don't ever change" in someone's yearbook, there isn't that much of a choice. In the aftermath I can honestly say this summer has been pleasant,since it is morosely coming to an end=/ ..No, it wasn't crazy like last year. No, it wasn't boring. &No, it ain't regretful either. Everybody's grown into their own "goods" and slightly knowing where they belong. You realize throughout the "maturenesses" the ones you are in touch with are the ones that will hang on to you no matter how much you may change or how you deliver now a days. The ones that are still making that effort to snatch a hang out with you shows he/she is still there for you. I don't blame change, I blame them for the "change" they chose to be. But I lived with happiness mostly every single day summer was pronounced, it has begun. Kicking it with my girls can't get any better. Those girls where you can reach your maximum gayest level.NO HOMO!ha. MY girls, that will always keep me laughing until they kill me. MY girls, that will always remind me how black I am. MY girls, that can just kick it and talk for days. My girlsies, that are defined my best friends. I learned that word l o v e has now more than partially taken over me. It'll either make me or break me. But over the months, survey says it's worth it. Life is about being spontaneous and thats what i'll do.I'll do what i love and i'll fuck the rest. But make sure to ALWAYS take one good look on what you've got on your plate and Learn to Live it, Love it, appreciate it...&DEF don't take advantage of it.